Strawberry Cheese Cupcakes!

omgosh omgosh omgosh.

i need to blog about theseeee!





you've got it!!!
STRAWBERRY CHEESE CUPCAKES!!!

have been wanting to make these since ages ago.
since i wrote a process essay for school on how to make these babies.

AND...
i haven't blogged a recipe in awhile...
but this one is toooooooooo yummy not to blog about!
so, needless to say, i need to blog about these!

to start, i got this recipe from Kay Kay, one of the HOTTEST celeb models on earth (im pretty sure everyone knows who im talking about)
(Click here for the recipe)
and she got it from Joylicious, another popular baker blogger person
this is her recipe, but kay kay did some editing to it, and i did minor adjustments to hers
so hereby, i proudly present... MY RECIPE! :)

Here are the ingredients:
For the crust:
15 Digestives crackers, crumbed
Half a blog of butter, 125g? (you can use a bit more, since mine were not sticky enough...)
3 tbs of sugar

For the batter:
4 egg whites and 2 tbs of sugar
1 tsp baking powder
0.5 tsp of salt
1.5 cups all-purpose flour
125g of butter
1 cup sugar
1 tsp vanilla extract
0.5 cup sour cream
2 cups fresh strawberries, hulled and diced

i didn't make the cream cheese frosting cuz it was sooooooooo good on its own! :)
when they came out of the oven, i was like:
WOAH. Y U SO YUMMY???

my crust of the cupcake was not really crusty (if you get what i mean) since there weren't enough butter to stick them.

okay, here are the steps!

for the crust:

Preheat oven to 170 degrees Celsius.

Mix the Digestives crumbs and butter and sugar and put roughly a tablespoon of it in each cupcake. 

Use your fingers to pack it down. 

Bake in oven for 3-5 mins.

For the batter:

Beat the 4 egg whites and 2 tbs of sugar till stiff. Be careful not to overbeat them, or they will turn watery :S

Set aside.Mix the all-purpose flour, baking powder and salt. Set aside

In another bowl, cream the butter and sugar until light and fluffy, then add the vanilla and beat with a hand mixer.  Then add half the flour mixture until incorporated then mix in the sour cream

Add remaining flour and mix everything.

Gently fold 1/3 of the egg into the batter until combined, don’t over mix the egg whites or the cupcakes will fall flat. Add remaining egg whites.

Hull your strawbies! Then dice them up and fold into your cupcake batter.

Fill each cupcake about 3/4  and bake for about 25 minutes depending on your oven.

and you are done!!! :)

 

Look at these heavenly, yummy-licious strawberry cheese cupcakes!

ain't you already in loveeee with them???

not only that, the bottom crust... mm-mm!

MAD YUMMY PLEASE.

no wonder im getting fat :(

Warmth, gone.

I finally understand the warmth of family...
Never felt so alone in my entire life.

Both boyfriend and family are away.
Though my older sister is still here, but she isn't home half the time. Promised to have dinner w me and pulled out halfway. Don't give me empty promises please. :(
So it's like I'm literally alone.

Boyfriend went for field camp...
Family went to Taiwan, without me.
Yes, WITHOUT ME.
imagine my devastation. :(
One of my dream places to go since my uni friends kept telling me how fun Taiwan was...
Man! Such a waste I couldn't go with them...
Imagine all the HUGE hot dogs I'm missing.
The amount of shopping I'm not doing.
All the fun from the trip. Sian.

Ohh wells.
But this time, really...
Can emo the entire night talking about how lonely im feeling...
The feeling is indescribable.
I hate being home alone...
So my future husband, if you are reading this, you know what to do. Don't go overseas often okay. Whether for work or not. Hahaha.

And today is only Day 2. How am I gonna survive 5 more days like that?
Boyfriend is outfield till Thu.
And today is Sunday. Gosh.

Burying myself in work.
Sighs.

strawberry cheese cupcakes time?

ever since i've read yankaykay's blog (kaykay.sg), i have been wanting to bake these cupcakes for a really really long time!
http://www.kaykay.sg/2012/10/recipe-for-strawbie-cheesecake-cupcakes/

STRAWBERRY CHEESE CUPCAKES PLEASE!!!
who can deny that these ain't the best combination ever?

strawberry and cheese, both my favourite food. irresistible.

eh.... time, please allow me to bake some yummy cheesecakes please...?

rantrantrant

it's been a longggggggggggggggggg time since i last blogged.
and you know why???

because this is happening to me!







out of all honesty, I always visualized uni education to be like this











 Since they always told me how slack uni life was gonna be.
a lot of free time.
more time to do your research and other stuff.

yeah...
lesson time is indeed reduced...

BUT NO. DON'T BE DUPED.
it's the exact same thing when they said poly life was slack.
SLACK MY FOOT.
i entered poly, and i could barely breathe. but well, i still had time to go out, time for friends, blah blah...
but in uni? it totally sucked my soul out of me.

life of a uni student: we mug and mug and mug everyday.
end of story.

okay. this is gonna be a ranting post.
since i have yet to rant properly for a veryyy long time.
so let me rant, will you?

i have been doing project work. A LOT.
in school...
and i never had a problem.
is it me? or is it that person?
it's just so... square.
no flexibility.
humans are meant to be flexible.
adaptable to changes, whether you like it or not.
SO....
Y U SO INFLEXIBLE???

i don't understand one thing.
and this came about when doing project work, as well.
wow. through project work, i've learnt a lot about humans eh?

sooooo...
here is the question:
why are there political issues existing between friends?
between classmates?
between coursemates?
between schoolmates?
why are people so judgemental?
can't you leave your judging attitude at home for one day? just ONE DAY?

i admit, im guilty of it too. sometimes.
in situations when people annoy me, i tend to be a tad more judgemental.
hello? you are annoying me? i believe i have the rights to judge?
but in other situations, i don't really judge. unless someone alerts my judging sense, or im already annoyed with you to begin with.
otherwise, i don't judge people. at all.

someone tell me please.
is it in human nature?
is it that hard to learn to live in peace with someone?
is it that hard to not judge, at all, unless someone annoys you?

answer me, please?

Baking macarons

Macarons are soooo beautiful.
But I swear they are an angel in disguise.
Don't be fooled by those YouTube videos, telling you how easy to make those macarons are.
THEY ARE NOT.

I failed twice. TWICE.
Was soooo angry, upset. Crying deep down.
The question was: why did I fail?
My ingredients are correct.
I've done everything according to the instructions.
Everything was right.
So... WHY???? :( :( :(

I had a nightmare last night.
One that was soooo real.
Okay. It wasn't exactly a nightmare. It's more of a dream.
I finally made macarons. IN MY DREAM.
I found out why it was soooo hard to make macarons.
1. Macarons are normally made in angmoh countries. Which are cold. And less humid. Unlike singapore.
2. I didn't beat the eggs long enough. I needed to beat the eggs till they are like meringue.

And to make the macarons, these 2 main steps must be correct.

Images of my macarons are found below.
It ain't totally perfect yet, since this is my first successful batch.

Just bake accordingly. And remember, place it in an air con room before baking. And you'll succeed. :)

Much loved. xx

Happy Birthday Wan Ting! ♥ ♡ ♥

Happy 15th birthday my beloved sister! :)
Bought her a birthday cake and spent half the day with her.
Soooo happy. Gonna go shopping with her tmr too! Teehee. Can't wait since its a whole new experience.

Work life balance.
I kinda understand what it means now...

Time vs dreams

I claim that I have no time.
Rather, not enough time.
In actual fact, I do have time.
I'm just overwhelmed by greed.
I want everything.
I want to do my best in everything.
I want a piano degree.
I want a hotel management degree.
I want to work more. To earn more money.
I want to pursue my dreams by working at Tom's Palette.
I want to be part of the sub-committee.
I want a piece of every pie.
The irony comes in when I told my student not to learn so many instruments. Focus on one. And do well in that.
I'm not even heeding my own advice.

I know what's right for me.
What's good for me.
What I can do well.
What I want.
But the problem is, out of all the things I want, which are the ones I can achieve?
Which are the ones I can truly get?
Many occasions, we all want what's good for us. What would aid us in future.
Which is why our parents constantly send us for piano class, for tuition lessons, for enrichment programmes...
But what about living our lives to the fullest?
By doing all of that, would we be living our lives to the fullest?

I know I'm not living my life to the fullest right now.
I'm just surviving.
Like how food is just energy to the body, instead of appreciating the flavour and taste of the food.
I'm living life that way too.
I yearn to live life the other way.
Like the boss of Tom's Palette, whereby I can pursue my dreams. Make the best cupcakes in the world. Be the best baker ever.

But is that enough? Would that keep me going? Can I survive by living on my dreams? Is that even realistic?
It's like living on love.
When in love, two people are blinded by all the other aspects in the world.
They believe they can live on love. That love can overpower anything. And they won't have surviving problems as long as they live on love.
Well, ultimately there is a way out, somehow.
Begging, loaning, borrowing, stealing.
One of the ways... You can still survive eventually.
But would you be against your own morals?

That's how I don't want to live my life.
Pursuing my dreams and forgetting my own morals.
Which is why I'm working so hard.
But that's why I'm giving up on my dreams.
I don't know if I can afford my dreams.
This is so complex. :(
I wish life was easier.