Lost

Finally, im feeling lost.
I thought this feeling will never come back. But yes it did.

Feeling lost ain't the best feeling in the world.
Actually, it sucks.
Big time.

With school starting, im turning from busy to ultra busy.
I keep telling my friends "I will have time for you after work ends".
And work ended.
But Nopes, I don't have more time than usual.
In fact, far much lesser time.

School means project work, self study... And less important things such as social life.
And I don't have any more time to do anything else.
Plus piano... Taking degree at the end of the year.
Meaning I have to put in a lot more effort than usual people.
This isn't easy. Taking 2 degrees at the same time.
Plus my main degree is a 4-year course being squeezed into 2 years.
I CAN BARELY BREATHE.

I need to balance everything. But it's kinda impossible.
And I need to give something up.
As much as I don't want to give up, I need to.
No time. Absolutely none.
None even for myself. For my family.
Where do i fit everything else in?

This left me feeling terribly guilty for the past week.
I don't know what to do.

Praying that everything would fall into place.
Please...