Hate

There is definitely something that you'll hate about someone that everyone loves.

Strong word to use, but very true.

I'm sorry, but that's how life works.

Goodnight.

Compromise

Compromising. It's impossible.
Not for me. Not for anyone with no time.

I think I'm absolutely cruel.
To both myself and him
Why? Why did I do it then?
Am I being v selfish here?

Lost

Finally, im feeling lost.
I thought this feeling will never come back. But yes it did.

Feeling lost ain't the best feeling in the world.
Actually, it sucks.
Big time.

With school starting, im turning from busy to ultra busy.
I keep telling my friends "I will have time for you after work ends".
And work ended.
But Nopes, I don't have more time than usual.
In fact, far much lesser time.

School means project work, self study... And less important things such as social life.
And I don't have any more time to do anything else.
Plus piano... Taking degree at the end of the year.
Meaning I have to put in a lot more effort than usual people.
This isn't easy. Taking 2 degrees at the same time.
Plus my main degree is a 4-year course being squeezed into 2 years.
I CAN BARELY BREATHE.

I need to balance everything. But it's kinda impossible.
And I need to give something up.
As much as I don't want to give up, I need to.
No time. Absolutely none.
None even for myself. For my family.
Where do i fit everything else in?

This left me feeling terribly guilty for the past week.
I don't know what to do.

Praying that everything would fall into place.
Please...

Respect me

Give me the respect I deserve, and I would give you yours.

DIY Dip Dye Accessories

Omgosh!!! :)

I made like the most amazing thing in the world!!!
Those who follow me on Instagram or Twitter, or even Facebook would know that i've been making these!
And I've worn a few pieces out these past two days, some of my students have been asking me where did i buy my accessories from :) feels good to know that stuff you have made are good enough to be sold!

okay. i didn't make it. i DIY-ed.

Below are some accessories that my students said were nice!
Wore this when i went to teach yesterday.
Original piece was entirely black! so i totally revamped this! :)

And this one today! :)
Asked my student if she can tell if i DIY-ed it, and she said no! :)  
im so happyyyy!

 

Wore this too! :) with the above necklace!

stacked two of my DIY bracelets together!

super pretty, i think! im biased, since i loveeee colours + they are pastel colours, so DOUBLE LOVE!!! :) :)

Things you need to make these accessories:

1. Sponge - any kind of sponge. it's just to give the dip dye kinda effect.
2. Some nail polish - main colour preferable to have: WHITE.
   i didn't have white nail polish. So i just made do with all the colours that i had at home! like all the pastel colours. MY LOVE. which is why most of my items are in pastel colours (Thank you Von, for the nail polish that you had given me for my birthday! Great help! <3)
3. Nail polish remover - veryyyy important! because i did plenty and made some mistakes + no nail polish remover, so some were kinda screwed. BUT I FOUND WAYS TO SAVE THEM! :D :D
4. Accessories you don't want/ will never wear/ wanna revamp!
   It would be advisable to use accessories with flat surface - those with crystals are fine, if you like those that you see in the video below. But bracelets are super hard to make.

and this is how i got it!!! :)
i learnt how to make it from this YouTuber! so don't say that i had copied her or something. and no, she didn't pay me to do this either! hahaha.

watch this video and follow her too! she is amazing.

Exactly, this is where I got my inspiration from! :) soooooooo pretty please!
I'm so sorry, I don't have before and after pictures of my accessories, because my before product was too ugly!!! most of them were rusting and stuff. *bleh* but this is the after product!

Some of the pieces I DIY! :)
I just realised, all these accessories were bought in my secondary school days! so long ago please! woah. at least about 4 years ago already man! no wonder they were rusting!

Well, but not all turned out pretty...
This was one of the pieces i had ruined :(
***how i ruined it: too thick nail polish!

i had no nail polish remover, and my bottom layers that were too thick couldn't dry!!! so i had to scrape everything away! what a waste of nail polish! :(

ohh wells! :) i've learnt from my lesson.
so beginners, start easy with flat surfaced accessories. so much easier please! :)
REVAMP YOUR ACCESSORIES GORGEOUS!

hope you've learnt something today!
xx

how many chances can you give?

i would really appreciate coming home, and at least see that my room aint messy. i feel like im in a warzone at work. and coming home? i feel indifferent... i need to feel peace in the house. i need to feel safe. its home to me. not a house. and since you had brought about rubbish, this "home" now somehow feels like a house, and now degraded further to become a warzone.

no one can understand how that feels. no matter what kinda rubbish sister you have, it cannot be worse than mine, i assure you. so you will never understand how i feel, despite what im telling you.

i wanna take a photo of my room now, after much talking to her and telling her to pack up my room. its still messy, but its not in a shit state. and you will be like: are you sure someone did any packing here? and nopes, i wont be surprised if you asked me that...

i swear on my life that it had been exhausting as hell living with my sister.

it wasnt so bad before... but its terrible now.

she gives me nothing but trouble.

i swear, she is the kinda person that will die on the streets and you wont be surprised she had died. i know, that isnt very nice... but its really annoying. why? because you kinda will expect someone to kill her for how annoying she is.

we fight about everything. we just dont get along like we used to. and i aint the only one that fight with her.

our habits changed, character changed, everything changed prsctically.

i mean, its fine. people change. but i cannot tolerate if people lie to me. about something, about nothing... for the littlest things in the world. why must they lie?

lets just take an example of what she lies about:

"i did not take your rubber band!"

yes, poor innocent girl being accused by me of taking my rubber band... hello? proof and evidence that you obviously took it because all of them are found near/ umderneath your bed! its sucha small matter. cant you just tell me you took it???

honestly, honesty is the best policy...

or "i did not take your book"

ohh yeah, you didnt. it just magically disappeared out of my cabinet and opened flat out on your bed. excellent work! magic!!!

dafaq? im not that stupid please.

not being a caring elder sister is fine. i can live with that.

but being a nasty sister is another thing.

i dont know how to put this, but i dont wanna be like her. for sure.

i cant act in front od everybody and tell them that im fine, and thay things are perfectly fome between the both of us.

NO. 

i will not and shall not do that. not anymore.

ive tried, and failed miserably.

i feel like im cutting myself up, thats all.

I hurt myself far too many times...

♥ My Birthday Celebration ♥

okay! :)
time to be a little hardworking and blog about my birthday events!

it's the most memorable event EVER, i swear!

that night before my birthday, he was absolutely sweet!
he came down to my garden and look what he brought me!

Yes, an absolutely amazing strawberry cheesecake that he had made for me! :) (i just finished it!)
super yummy! omgosh.
even my brother says it's amazing!!! words of a guy... you'd better believe it.

and looking at this reminds me of how he and his mum are sooooo similar with one another!
they bought practically the same gift!

 just different colours!
but i totally love both the colours!
both are in my favourite colours!!! omgosh! so happy when i saw them!
now i don't bear to use them...

ohh well. he came to find me before 12 because i was super tired and was gonna fall asleep.
then he called me, and told me to come downstairs.
at first, i didn't see him.
and when i did, i saw him carrying so many things!!! AHHHH! :)

happiness! ^^

okay. so on the official day, we first, went to Kushinbo for lunch! ♥
(for those that don't know what Kushinbo is, it's a Japanese buffet with FREE FLOW sashimi (raw fish - my absolute favourite! ♥) and many other Japanese food.)

I LOVEEEE JAP FOOD, FYI. ♥ ♥ ♥

so we were camwhoring on the way to Great World City!

we headed to the Great World City branch AND LOOK AT THE SPREAD!!!

Okay, this plate looks kinda gross cuz EVERYTHING is on it! I was too excited taking my first plate!
But look at those prawns... and scallop! (He doesn't like scallop, so i get EVERYTHING!)

There were a lot more food but i was lazy to take photos of it... hahaha. was busy stuffing myself *guilty*

and we were too full after the main course, so i started to camwhore so that i could digest some food and make space for my dessert!

five shots with him! ♥

and one of me! :)

OMGOSH. he is kissing me!!! ♥

messy hair, but i don't care!!! cuz it's my birthday! :)

okay, but the food wasn't all.
there were DESSERTS!!!

this fondue counter was right at the main entrance, and when i first stepped in, MY EYES WERE SET ON IT. it was beautiful! :') i wanted it! sooooo bad.

chocolate coated strawberries. chocolate coated marshmallow. chocolate coated grapes.
my life is perfect!

and did you see all the other desserts!!!
the mousse cakes were absolutely yummy! i just didn't like the orange ones... cuz i don't like orange. hehs.
but everything else, yummy...

there were even pieces of chocolates there that i was enjoying...
don't know why, but he wasn't craving for chocolates. ohh wells. don't care! i was enjoying it all by myself! yums!

and after the buffet, i felt 10kg heavier!!!
woahhhhhh.
and we went to watch batman! again! the second time im watching it. i love batman! SO HANDSOME. woah. when he turns around and flicks his hair... hot man!!!

and then was dinner with my family!
we went to astons, cuz i couldn't think of anywhere else that we didn't eat before. actually, there is this jap food place... but i had jap for lunch. jap for lunch + dinner = ??? better not risk it!

my siblings bought me a cake! :)
when my bro called me, he asked me:
Bro: eh, what cake you want uh? Chocolate hazelnut, Green tea or Black Forest?
Me: ... uh...
Bro: the chocolate hazelnut looks veryyyy nice. the black forest looks not bad. the green tea is... green tea luhs.
Me: uh... okay. (i was thinking of getting the green tea cake already, since i like green tea.)
Bro: Can we get the chocolate hazelnut cake? cuz it looks really nice luhs! i think the black forest one okay-okay only... and i don't like green tea. so chocolate hazelnut can?
Me: *stun* okay. can

LOL. he had already decided! but he still called me. super cute please! -.-

but super happy dayyy! :)

DAY 2
Omgosh!
started the day with...
Prive Cafe! :)

and...
EGGS BENEDICT!

omgosh! it was soooooo yummy! :)
but utterly fattening please!
cuz he works there, so he was telling me how they made eggs benedict, after i ordered it!!!
arrgh. the fats!
like the yellow sauce... is also made out of egg yolk!
ULTIMATE FATNESSSSSS!

 whoo. and fries! :)
nice yummy-licious truffle fries!!!

awwws. and a sweet slice of hazelnut cake, with special writings! :)
all a fancy surprise by... the manager!
he was a nice little man!

and then we popped off the USS! like finally!!!
my first trip there!!! :)
I haven't been to USS since it opened. all my friends at been there, and im seeing all the photos on Facebook and stuff. So sad please!!!

But yeahs! i've finally been there! :)
Welcome to USS!!!

 Look!!! it's Frankenstein!!! :) :)

 Going for the Madagascar ride! :)

UNDERWORLD!!! :)
cool show that was there!

 The transformers ride!
and no, i didn't take it! :( cuz i cannot take these rides. i would pass out or something.

 NEW YORK CITY!!! :)

 waiting for a show - behind the scenes! to see all the cool effects :)

 MEEEE WANT COOKIE TOO!!! :)
i ♥ cookie monster!!!
omnomnomnom.

and this garbage character from sesame street! :)
he is sooooo cute! holding one shoe there! :) absolutely adorable!!! ♥

 and Ernie!!! :)

 and an absolutely delicious meal at the pizza place! :)
we had:

• ice lemon tea
• 2 slices of pizza: hawaiian & another weird flavour
• coffee puddings
• drumlets!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

and after dinner, we decided to tour the place a bit more...
some photos of us with old school cars! *vroom vroooooom*

 retro boom-box!!! :)

fluffy Reece peanut-butter cups bear that is really really really cute!!! ♥ ♥ ♥
I WANTTTTTT.

 Me with popcorns!!! :) happiness!

CANDY TREE.
absolutely stunning!
i ♥ candies
i ♥ colourful trees too! :)

cupcake decor!

 look at the flavour on the jelly bean packet! :) absolutely cool!
i wanna try the apple pie!
or the birthday cake! :)
soooooo cute!

 this is the smoothie range!
looks yummy too!!!

 ice cream pen!!! :)

mm-mm. i can live here! :)
all the lipsticks *smack*

 Jelly belly beans! :)

had a pleasant day at USS! :)
didn't really like it though... because i thought that it was far too small! :(
like Disneyland in HK was far more awesome that USS here! was kinda disappointed cuz it was sooooo small! and ain't as pretty as Disneyland!
but it's alright... :) great experience with him!
i ain't ever going again. cuz it costs $60++, so not worth it! -.-"

really loved this birthday!! :)
thanks everybody!  ♥♥♥