Baking macarons

Macarons are soooo beautiful.
But I swear they are an angel in disguise.
Don't be fooled by those YouTube videos, telling you how easy to make those macarons are.
THEY ARE NOT.

I failed twice. TWICE.
Was soooo angry, upset. Crying deep down.
The question was: why did I fail?
My ingredients are correct.
I've done everything according to the instructions.
Everything was right.
So... WHY???? :( :( :(

I had a nightmare last night.
One that was soooo real.
Okay. It wasn't exactly a nightmare. It's more of a dream.
I finally made macarons. IN MY DREAM.
I found out why it was soooo hard to make macarons.
1. Macarons are normally made in angmoh countries. Which are cold. And less humid. Unlike singapore.
2. I didn't beat the eggs long enough. I needed to beat the eggs till they are like meringue.

And to make the macarons, these 2 main steps must be correct.

Images of my macarons are found below.
It ain't totally perfect yet, since this is my first successful batch.

Just bake accordingly. And remember, place it in an air con room before baking. And you'll succeed. :)

Much loved. xx

Happy Birthday Wan Ting! ♥ ♡ ♥

Happy 15th birthday my beloved sister! :)
Bought her a birthday cake and spent half the day with her.
Soooo happy. Gonna go shopping with her tmr too! Teehee. Can't wait since its a whole new experience.

Work life balance.
I kinda understand what it means now...

Time vs dreams

I claim that I have no time.
Rather, not enough time.
In actual fact, I do have time.
I'm just overwhelmed by greed.
I want everything.
I want to do my best in everything.
I want a piano degree.
I want a hotel management degree.
I want to work more. To earn more money.
I want to pursue my dreams by working at Tom's Palette.
I want to be part of the sub-committee.
I want a piece of every pie.
The irony comes in when I told my student not to learn so many instruments. Focus on one. And do well in that.
I'm not even heeding my own advice.

I know what's right for me.
What's good for me.
What I can do well.
What I want.
But the problem is, out of all the things I want, which are the ones I can achieve?
Which are the ones I can truly get?
Many occasions, we all want what's good for us. What would aid us in future.
Which is why our parents constantly send us for piano class, for tuition lessons, for enrichment programmes...
But what about living our lives to the fullest?
By doing all of that, would we be living our lives to the fullest?

I know I'm not living my life to the fullest right now.
I'm just surviving.
Like how food is just energy to the body, instead of appreciating the flavour and taste of the food.
I'm living life that way too.
I yearn to live life the other way.
Like the boss of Tom's Palette, whereby I can pursue my dreams. Make the best cupcakes in the world. Be the best baker ever.

But is that enough? Would that keep me going? Can I survive by living on my dreams? Is that even realistic?
It's like living on love.
When in love, two people are blinded by all the other aspects in the world.
They believe they can live on love. That love can overpower anything. And they won't have surviving problems as long as they live on love.
Well, ultimately there is a way out, somehow.
Begging, loaning, borrowing, stealing.
One of the ways... You can still survive eventually.
But would you be against your own morals?

That's how I don't want to live my life.
Pursuing my dreams and forgetting my own morals.
Which is why I'm working so hard.
But that's why I'm giving up on my dreams.
I don't know if I can afford my dreams.
This is so complex. :(
I wish life was easier.

math madness

omgosh. i still cannot believe that i have such HUGE guts to challenge my math Professor today!!!
I must be mad. or something.
please...
he is a PROFESSOR, fyi.

my guts are really huge. gosh.

okay. so this is the question that i challenged him
 Is 4^(1/3) a rational number?
Professor: Yes, because the number goes on and on.
Me: No it doesn't. Look!

Me: If i manually input all the numbers, I would get a full number 4.
Professor: That is the saved number in the calculator.
Me: *frustrated* it's not!!! i manually input all the numbers in.
Friend X: Perhaps the rounding off number gives you a nice number...
Maybe the value does not stop there?

I was a bit doubtful about it. And i need to see it to believe it. Thus, i decided to find a calculator with more than 9 decimal placing to do that.
Voila, Friend X was right!!! :( :(

it was 1.5874010519.........
ohh wells.

Verdict: Professor is right. (PS. Professor is never wrong...)
and i conclude that i officially think too much

*facepalm*

Hectic school + zouk

Omgosh.

Haven't Blogged in such a long time.
Am sick now, so taking the chance to blog a bit.
Hahaha.

I'm down with a fever, flu, cough, headache and sore throat.
Gosh. That's a really long list.
But yeahs. I feel really sick.
Like nothing got to my head at all today. :(
AND I HAVE A FREAKING TEST ON THURSDAY.

Screw it luhs.

But I finally went clubbing on Saturday! :)
Okay. Been to a club.
Didnt really club dance or drink much since I wasn't feeling too good that day.
Like damn hungry and when I was finally full, I felt so bloated. Weird feeling man. Don't know if it's cuz i didnt have a proper dinner.
Whatever. I wasn't drunk anyway. Which was a good thing.
Cuz I get drunk really really really easily. :(
Boohoo. I'm a lousy drinker.

But well, stepping into a club makes me really insecure... Like guys kept staring!
I just kept holding onto my girlfriend's hand. No way am I gonna let it go.
And some girls are like really letting themselves lose.
I had some girls touching me... Like awkward!
I was just totally not used to it.

A few of my first timer friends went maddd though.
They were really really wild!
It was hectic. They drank too much.
One even hugged my girlfriend and didn't wanna let her go when we were about to go off.
Goodness.

Will I go clubbing again?
NO.
Like are you freaking serious??!?!
Okay. I sound like some total nerd now.
But I totally didn't enjoy myself.
I'm not sure is it cuz I'm not used to my uni friends yet. But I was really image conscious...
HAHAHA.
real funny since all of them see me as an Ahlian.
Reputation: ZERO.

Whatever.

Speaking of Ahlian...
I don't understand why people always judge others.

Take a look at this photo.

I hate to say, but I have to agree with it.
People are judging wayyyy too much.
Sometimes, it ain't even your business.

And you do not know me.
Why the hell are you calling me an Ahlian?
Come on!!!

Please know someone, like literally know-know, before you judge them.
Tyvm.

xx